Hello lovely people from the internet! Both Marianne and I have been really out of it for the past year, and even more the last few months. Life gets in the way, to put it shortly.
The past few months have been hard in many aspects, economically, emotionally, personally, and globaly. It has been shitty. There are days I think to myself what is the point of anything we do, and why keep on doing it. There have been days where I feel lost and aimless, other days where I want to scream at the world and do all the things and do nothing at the same time.
Thank God I finished my first year of college successfully after many stressful days and nights of restlessness last May. After that, I took a vacation from everything. I didn’t give much interest to blogging and reviewing books, I slept and woke up late, and I just became an irresponsible mess. July came rolling quicker than anticipated and my days were full of babysitting my nephew. I bordered on insanity for a few weeks. However, I came to discover how important socializing can be, how it can lift your spirits when you go out with people you care about like friends and have deep conversations, or just go hunting Pokemon. Babysitting left me drained, but my friends kept me grounded through it all.
Now? College started again last week, much sooner than normal. And I’m already full of work work work and many readings to be done. But I’m happy, because I feel with purpose, with something to do rather than stare at the ceiling of my room, thinking “What do I do now?” as I so often found myself this last summer.
This has brought into my life order again, and has let me rediscover why I love blogging, why I love discussing books with people, and why it matters. I don’t want to stress myself with this as an obligation as it takes a lot of effort. If a blogger tells you this is easy, they’re lying. It’s not easy, but it makes us happy. Blogging and reviewing isn’t all about the free books, either physical or electronic. For some time I got lost in that and forgot why I even started this with Marianne.
It started because, during a difficult time, I found solance in reading opinions, both good and bad, about books I didn’t even know about, worlds and adventures still undiscovered. it let me know I was not alone in my thoughts, and I yearned for that connection with others.
What happens now? Before running, you walk, and beforethat, you crawl. In whatever aspect of life, it’s essencial to take things slowly at first, and then set the pace as you push yourself forward into more challenges. And if things don’t feel right or don’t work out, it’s always good to take a break to figure things out. Stressing will only cause more stress.
I hope you’re all good in whatever part of the world, and I’ll be seeing more or you, and you of me, soon 🙂
Jennifer M. <3
PS. I feel like what I wrote above is a mess of jumbled thoughts, but I wanted to share that. A few good things can be found in messes, sometimes xD
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