People always assume that since I’m a book blogger/ reviewer, it means that I am the best writer in the world.
Yes, I’m a blogger. Yes, I’m a compulsive reader. Yes, a big part of my life revolves around criticizing books. But no. I am not a writer. I am first and foremost a reader, which is how I rate the books I read.
Whenever I tell someone that I’m a book blogger, they automatically ask me: “So I’m guessing you’re studying English to become a great author, right?”.
Do you want to know what their reactions are when I tell them I’m actually majoring in Science?
I most certainly am not joking! *rage*
Why is it so difficult to believe that a self proclaimed bookworm doesn’t want to be an author? Has it never occurred to anyone that maybe I’m a horrible writer?
Exhibit A: Look at this post! It’s a mess. I can’t go one paragraph without using GIFs! I’d be a horrendous author. My books would all be electronic because they’d have GIFs scattered all around to accurately express what I’m thinking.
Another problem I have with trying to write up stories, is the fact that I subconsciously copy things I’ve seen from other books onto my “book ideas”. No lie. I once dreamt up a whole story (this is why we shouldn’t trust dreams!) about a society that lobotomized teenagers at a certain age because they believed it would control their citizens… I then realized it was eerily familiar to Delirium by Lauren Oliver.
Not to mention the fact that I have like 5 unfinished drafts in my computer and zero motivation to even look at them…
I’d rather not be reminded of what a horrible failure I am as a writer, thanks.
But guess what? I’m perfectly okay with the fact that I’m a horrible writer! I prefer being a reader anways!
I love getting lost in other people’s words. I love not having to actually write a story myself (I’d probably hate it anyways, lol). I love that I don’t have to feel pressured to reach a certain deadline and write several thousand words by the end of the week.
However, I deeply respect those who are both bloggers/reviewers and also aspiring authors. Jennifer (co-blogger) sometimes sends me drafts and short stories she wrote, and I love just being there to read them. I love giving her ideas on how the story could be better, and gushing about how awesome it is.
Cait & Mime from Notebook Sisters are writers as well. I have not read anything by them, but only reading the outlines of their stories has me salivating for their books!
Which is why… surprisingly enough I’m going to talk with my College Counselor to see if I can Double Major. I want to have the best of both worlds: Chemistry & English. Chemistry to produce crystal meth (or you know.. do something boring like investigate crime scenes… ;D), and English to see if I can intern with some US publishers to get a behind the scenes into what goes on in the Publishing world.
Forgive me for the rambling! I had no idea where this post was going, and it somehow led to Loki. No regrets, haha. (Another reason why I can’t be a writer).
Have a great day, everybody!
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