Review: My Last Kiss by Bethany Neal

June 22, 2014 Book 12 ★½

Review: My Last Kiss by Bethany NealMy last Kiss by Bethany Neal
Genres: Contemporary, Crime, Fiction, Mystery, Romance, Young Adult
Published by Macmillan Children's Publishing Group on June 10th 2014
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What if your last kiss was with the wrong boy? 

Cassidy Haines remembers her first kiss vividly. It was on the old covered bridge the summer before her freshman year with her boyfriend of three years, Ethan Keys. But her last kiss--the one she shared with someone at her seventeenth birthday party the night she died--is a blur. Cassidy is trapped in the living world, not only mourning the loss of her human body, but left with the grim suspicion that her untimely death wasn't a suicide as everyone assumes. She can't remember anything from the weeks leading up to her birthday and she's worried that she may have betrayed her boyfriend. 

If Cassidy is to uncover the truth about that fateful night and make amends with the only boy she'll ever love, she must face her past and all the decisions she made--good and bad--that led to her last kiss.

Bethany Neal's suspenseful debut novel is about the power of first love and the haunting lies that threaten to tear it apart.

I really wanted to like this book. It started really… creepy and horrible to say the least, but in a good way. The main character, Cassidy, died. She wakes up near a lake and she sees her own body twisted in unnatural ways. And she cant get inside of it again. Then she sees as her body is on the morgue and her father looks at her dead body and is torn to pieces. As much as she tries to scream and make someone see her, no one can. No one, except Ethan, her boyfriend. 

I give points to the author in making this story strangely unique. No one knows why Cassidy died, not even her. Cassidy can barely remember what happened days before her death, even less minutes before she was found floating by the frozen lake in what pointed out to be a suicide. It was interesting at first. I wanted to know what happened to her. I felt her pain at being a ghost in an uncertain place, not heaven nor hell, just a limbo of living among the people she loved and see them suffer her passing away while being invisible to everyone.

It all went well until the boyfriend happened. It was cute and bittersweet that he could see her, and weirdly enough, they could touch each other as if Cassidy was still alive without it hurting (because when others passed by her it hurt a lot). I started to get bored when all Cassidy could think about was him and what could it mean that only he could see her. It got to a point where something interresting was starting to happen and Ethan had to butt in and ruin it with his romance, either in physical presence or thoughts.

But even as I tried to look around this, the story started to lose my interest the more I read. It was told between then and now, memories gripping Bethany and making her relive them in very vivid ways, even for a ghost. They were confusing at times. She would think something and I wasn’t sure if it was the ghost remembering something or if it was her being alive and “living it.”

The whole mystery of what happened to her was then put on the shoulder’s of Cassidy’s best friends as they tried to come to the conclusion, and prove, that it wasn’t suicide like everyone claimed.

By 50% I got interested again because of this. I had hopes that the story would pick up and I wouldn’t be able to drop it until the end. I dropped it at 55%.

Cassidy had family issues. No one could understand her family situation where her parents were getting a divorce and fought constantly. She kept pushing people away, both alive and in ghost form, when they could have helped her. But no one could get to understand Cassidy more other than herself, and the bad boy  that everyone knows is trouble. And while in ghost form, as Cassidy started to uncover that she was cheating to her boyfriend, she didn’t say anything. She didn’t try to explain to Ethan what happened, what she thought, what she felt, not even a simple sorry. She didn’t ask questions to him either. I wanted to smack her with Heaven’s gates and scream at her that she was a freaking ghost! How more bad could it get? She could have cleared everything with Ethan, she could have stopped felling guilty, and ask what happened between them on those last days. Instead, she added more guilt to that pile, she tortured Ethan with her presence, and did nothing but think how she loved him and how she couldn’t do this to him. Girl, you’re dead. It couldn’t get much worse than that.

Because of that, I decided that this book wasn’t for me. I dropped out of the blog tour, and until now I did the review. But don’t let this review discourage you if you want to read it. Just because it wasn’t my type of book does it mean you won’t like it either. I just couldn’t stand any more of Cassidy’s frustrating crap.

If you’re looking for a book with ghostly mystery and romance mixed a lot with it, this book is for you. If you don’t like characters like Cassidy, then maybe this one isn’t for you either. I might get to read it until the end some time in the future, or read it really fast and see how it ends. But for now, it’s a Did Not Finish.

Rating: 1.5 stars

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I'm Jennifer. Addicted reader, and lover of books. I'm a full-time college student majoring in English Liturature and Linguistics & Communication, with aspirations of being a professional editor. Among other things. In the meantime, I obsess over books, history, art, and politics. I believe in freedom of speech and reading whatever you want. Open to discussions about anything and everything 🙂
  • Ugh…Cassidy sounds definitely tedious. 😐 I can understand DNF’ing this. It always sucks to read a dodgy book, though, right?! Better to DNF then suffer through and hate it so much by the end. 😉

  • Sigh. I like that you’re able to find the good in a book where the bad outweighs…well the good. To be honest, this book was not even in my radar just because of the bad reviews it’s been getting. Also, I’m not at all interested in a book that started off with someone died. It’s like I already know it’s not going to end well for the couple.

    Great review, Jen!

    • Um… Thank you I suppose! I guess I just try to find a bit of good in everything. One might say it’s a flaw some times.

      And exactly! There are books that start in a way that just make me think why I would want to read it when I already know how it’ll end. But maybe it’s not so much about the end but how the characters get there. It depends on the genre for me too.

      Thanks for commenting and reading! 🙂

  • Aw sorry to hear that this one didn’t work for you. It was a different kind of set-up and could see how it wouldn’t work for some readers. I actually liked this one, but see your points.

    • I’m usually very connected to characters when I read, and when that connection can’t be made because of certain things, I find it hard to engage in the rest of the book as to end it or like it in general. But I’m glad you liked it 🙂 Thanks for commenting!

  • Definitely going to be skipping this one. I would have most likely put it down as well, it sounds really frustrating. Plus if I lost interest and it never pulled me in again, meh. Love the review, though!

    • That first sentence made me think of Marianne’s most recent post about suggestions xD ( But yeah, sometimes it’s hard to get motivation to keep reading a book when it keeps frustrating you, even more when the main source can be because of the MC.

      And thanks! 🙂

  • *sigh* I have to admit this one was on my radar because of of the lovely cover and the synopsis. I liked the whole idea of the MC being a ghost and trying to piece together how she died. it sounded so interesting but lately i’ve just come across many reveiws like yours and now i’m not so sure it’s a ‘me’ read. 🙁
    Hopefully your next read is better

    • Aw I’m sorry to hear that :/ If you do get to read it some time, I hope you can like it more than I 🙂 Being truthful, it is interesting. My problem was just the MC some times xD Thanks for commenting 🙂

  • I was going to read this one but just couldn’t anymore something about it just wasn’t appealing to me after awhile so Tina is going to review it and she’s been reading it over a week now which is a sure sign to me that it is not good. She can be brutal with her reviews.

    That’s always unfortunate when you really don’t like a book and have to drop out of a tour!

  • THIS: “Girl, you’re dead. It couldn’t get much worse than that.” That is why I’m never able to get down with this kind of story, I think. There’s forbidden love, which I quite enjoy, and then there’s impossible-so-what’s-the-point-love, which is . . . impossible, so what’s the bloody point? And this kind of ghost is just creepy. Ghosts are never my favorite (there is a negative correlation between things that I like and things that are most-likely to be real/happen), but I can handle them sometimes (like in Jeaniene Frost’s Night Huntress series). Ghosts hovering over their dead, twisted bodies though . . . yeah, no. Great review, Marianne! And THANKS. I might have made an exception for this one.

  • I’m not usually convinced about these ghost reads. I mean who bloody cares why your boyfriend is cheating and everything because you’re dead! Excuse the insensitivity but seriously -_- great review Jenn!